As I do some research I'm seeing an interesting theme for many of us around this time of life. We want to do things that we want to do and we want to do them our way. Maybe because we have been in patterns of doing things the way we thought we "should" do them, or because we didn't want to hurt other people's feelings, or because we compared ourselves to others, but now .... ahhhhh.....now our bodies seem to be telling us to take a breath and softly ask within.... "what do YOU want?"
What do I want? (You're kidding, right???)
Now, my friends will probably tell you that I'm fairly good at taking care of myself and yet they might not know that I still occasionally have to remind myself that it's ok to ask that question! My lust for alone time has been something I've often had mixed feelings about and didn't really understand. What's wrong with me? Why do I need so much time to myself? Am I that unsociable? I love people!! I love community!! I love my boyfriend! .... But I seem to love my solitude time, too. That quiet time to check inside and ask myself "what would you like to do at this very moment and how do you want to do it?" Ohhhh.... how decadent!! I could meditate, or go for a walk in the rain, or journal with my non-dominant hand, or take a bath for an hour. It's a time where I don't HAVE to do anything except what I want!
I happened to come upon a website I love from a healer named Susun Weed. She talks about menopause as a spiritual journey requiring, at times, solitude! Since our bodies are going through so many different changes, we require time to just go within and BE!! Be still with ourselves. Just breathe. Just allow. It's a healing time as well as a transformational time where we draw inward, move away from outside responsibilities and into ourselves.
So....Wow! Thankyou Susun Weed! Perhaps I'm not as strange as I feared... or maybe I am... and it's ok!!
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